I remember being pregnant with my first. I was taking in as much information as possible. I joined groups for moms expecting babies in the same month, followed influencers and perfect install moms, and read parenting advice—anything I could get my hands on. At first, it felt like I was getting ahead—like I was setting …
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When Breastfeeding Doesn't Go as Planned You just finished another round of pumping, only to be let down, yet again, by your body. You think of the looks you are self-conscious of when you make a bottle of formula for your baby in public. The looks as you add a container of formula to your …
Continue reading Navigating Guilt: To the Mom Who Feels Like She’s Failing
As I pulled out my breast pumps, preparing to sanitize them for their new homes, an unexpected wave of sadness washed over me. These were more than just machines. They were physical, tangible reminders of the struggles I had endured. They held all my hope—the hope that I could nourish my baby the way I …
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This is the fifth installment in my series on grief. I recommend reading the previous posts highlighting denial, anger, bargaining, and depression before this one. They provide solid context and highlight the emotional journey I have been through to get to this point. It’s been over a year since I began walking through this grief …
Continue reading Surrendering Expectations: Embracing the Mother I Am Becoming
I vividly remember the first time I read about Insufficient Glandular Tissue (IGT). I was sitting on the toilet and sobbing. Sobbing because, for the first time, I had figured out what was “wrong” with me. Sobbing because I felt betrayed.